Senin, 05 November 2012

Real Nightmare?


This is a Real Story. It happened to myself on 4nd Nov. And I never forget this story, because...yaa it can't be forgotten lah..

 

Aku sedang terlelap. Tapi aku dapat mendengar suara pintu kamarku dibuka. Kurasa itu ayahku. Ya. Dia mengecek suhu tubuhku. Sepertinya tubuhku sudah membaik. Karena tidak ada respon apa-apa lagi darinya. Setelah ayahku pergi, aku dapat membuka mataku perlahan. Meski agak sulit, tapi tetap kupaksa karena aku hanya ingin mengecek jam. Oh..ternyata baru jam 23.00. Aku pun melanjutkan tidurku, dengan baju double+jacket+double bed cover yang melapisi tubuhku sekarang ini.

            Ayahku membangunkanku ketika aku sedang bermimpi indah -_- Lalu, ia menyodorkan sebotol Pocari Sweat yang berisi 900mL. Ia menyuruhku untuk meminum setengah dari isi botol tersebut. (HAH? Ga kuat T.T) Tapi aku menolaknya, karena aku tidak mampu dan lidahku sedang terasa pahit. Akhirnya aku hanya meminumnya sedikit, mungkin hanya 3 teguk. Setelah itu, ia hanya menyuruhku untuk selalu meminumnya. Dan aku pun hanya mengangguk. Saat ini sekitar jam 11 malam. Aku melanjutkan tidurku dan berharap mimpi tadi masih bisa dilanjutkan.

...

Ketika tidur, tiba-tiba aku merasa pusing. Kepalaku benar-benar sakit rasanya. Aku melihat ke arah jam, sudah menunjukkan pukul 01.00. Tiba-tiba, terlihat  seseorang keluar dari kamarku dan tidak menutup pintu kembali. Aku pikir itu ayahku, tapi aku mendengar suara dengkuran ayahku kali ini. Itu tandanya, ia sudah tidur daritadi. Karena aku benar-benar pusing, aku luruskan pandanganku. Tatapanku pun mengarah ke jendela kamarku. MASYA ALLAH. Aku kaget setengah mati. Tirai jendela sudah terbuka di sebelah kanan. Dan terlihat jendela disebelah kanan juga sudah terbuka. Padahal aku sangat yakin kalau tadi sore, aku sudah menutupnya dengan rapat. Bahkan, jendela itu sangat mustahil untuk terbuka sendiri karena kaitan jendelanya sangat rapat. 

Aku benar-benar pusing saat ini. Aku berusaha memejamkan mataku. Berusaha untuk tidur kembali. Aku tidak mau menyaksikan apa yang terjadi saat ini. Tapi aku tidak bisa tidur. Lalu kupaksa untuk bangun. Akhirnya aku bisa bangun, dan duduk dulu untuk menyeimbangkan tubuhku. Aku menunduk, sambil memegangi kepalaku. Aku memijatnya perlahan. Dan itu cukup membuatku sedikit rilex. Saat aku merasa sudah tenang, aku mencoba membuka mataku dengan perlahan. Berharap kejadian tadi hanyalah ilusi saja.

Tapi...

Ruangan kamarku berubah jadi gelap. Entah siapa yang mematikan lampu kamarku. Pintu kamarku juga masih terbuka. Bahkan jendela pun masih terbuka. Aku melihat kebelakangku dan... ASTAGFIRULLAH. Ada ragaku sedang berbaring di kasur. Ragaku terlihat gelisah dan berkeringat dengan bed cover yang menutupinya. Aku lemas dan menangis melihat ragaku sendiri. Jika dia memang diriku, lalu aku ini siapa?

...

Aku terbangun oleh suara alarm dari handphone ayahku. Sudah jam 4.30, tapi aku masih mengantuk dan merasa lelah sekali. Seperti sudah dikuras tenaganya selama semalam. Aku juga mendapati tubuhku yang penuh dengan keringat. Aku mengelap keringatku menggunakan kain kecil yang ada di sebelah tempat tidurku. Setelah selesai, aku meminum Pocari Sweat yang telah diberikan ayahku semalam. Sambil menelan minuman itu, aku melihat ke arah sekelilingku. Tidak ada yang janggal. Hanya pintu kamar saja yang tidak tertutup. Setelah puas dengan minuman itu, aku tidur lagi untuk memulihkan tenagaku.

Lagi. Aku terbangun kembali. Karena suara gemericik air dari kamar mandi yang letaknya disebelah kamarku. Sangat berisik sampai-sampai mampu membuat mataku terbuka lebar dalam sekali kedipan. Ini sudah jam 6 pagi. Dan aku tahu itu pasti ayahku sedang wudhu. Beberapa menit ketika aku terdiam, aku sadar kalau juga belum Solat Shubuh. Aku beranjak dari tempat tidurku dengan sedikit sempoyongan karena kepalaku masih terasa sakit. Aku mengambil air wudhu. Dan melaksanakan Solat Shubuh sendirian di kamar.

Aku membereskan peralatan Solat sesudahnya. Kemudian mematikan lampu dan AC yang sedari tadi sore sudah menyala dengan suhu 27 derajat celcius. Meskipun dengan suhu yang lumayan tinggi tersebut, aku masih merasa kedinginan semalam. Ya. Karena aku sedang sakit. Aku membuka tirai jendelaku. Dan tak kulihat matahari bersinar. Sepertinya ia sedang bersembunyi di balik awan. Saat aku mau membuka kaitan jendelaku yang sebelah kanan, aku mendapatinya sudah terbuka. Dan tiba-tiba jendela itu bergoyang sendiri. Aku sadar, kecepatan angin saat ini sedang lumayan kencang. Terbukti dari tumbuhan yang bergoyang di depan kamarku. Tapi rasanya mustahil jika jendela kamarku yang agak berat itu bergoyang oleh angin sekarang ini.

Melihat jendela ini, aku jadi teringat kejadian tadi malam. Aku masih bingung. Tadi malam itu mimpi atau nyata? Terasa seperti mimpi, tapi melihat jendela ini jadi terasa sangat nyata. Di rumah tidak ada orang lain  tadi malam. Hanya ada aku dan ayahku yang ada di rumah. Bunda sedang pergi ke solo, karena ada urusan yang sangat penting. Kepalaku terasa sakit kembali saat ini. Seperti ada yang menacapkan paku di bagian belakangnya. Aku putuskan untuk merebahkan tubuhku di tempat tidur lagi. Ya Allah.. Semoga besok aku sudah sehat kembali. Sangat tidak lucu jika aku tidur selama 72 jam sejak hari sabtu.
 

Sabtu, 20 Oktober 2012

At Home with Alien

Everyday I live with aliens.  I can't go elsewhere. Just stay at home and do their order to me. No one knows about my life story. And no one knows about my true family.

Kamu tahu..itu rasanya menyakitkan..
Seperti hidup di planet lain..
Seperti hidup di antara alien-alien..
Berbicara pada alien
dan mengerjakan tugas untuk alien..
Alien tidak akan mengerti apa yang aku rasakan..
Alien tidak akan mengerti apa yang sedang aku lakukan..
Alien tidak mengerti apa yang sedang kusampaikan..
Alien tidak mengerti bagaimana cara merespon yang tepat untuk diriku

Aku berbeda dengan alien
Aku tidak memiliki gen yang sama dengan alien
Aku tidak memiliki darah yang sama yang mengalir pada alien
Aku memiliki sifat yang tidak sama dengan alien
Aku juga tidak bisa merasakan cinta dari seorang alien
Kenapa?
Karena dia seorang alien.. berbeda dengan diriku

Apa alien tahu bagaimana cara mencintai seseorang seperti aku?
Apa alien tahu bagaimana cara menyayangi seseorang seperti aku dengan baik?
Apa alien tahu bagaimana cara meredam kemarahan seseorang seperti aku?
Apa alien tahu bagaimana cara menghibur seseorang seperti aku?
APA ALIEN TAHU????

Jika memang alien tahu...
Setidaknya alien harus bertanya dahulu pada mamaku bagaimana mencintai orang seperti aku..
Alien harus belajar dari mamaku bagaimana menyayangi orang seperti aku...
Alien harus mempelajari cara mamaku meredam kemarahanku..
Alien harus dekat dengan mamaku untuk bisa menghiburku..
Alien harus belajar semuanya dari mamaku jika memang ingin tahu tentang diriku..

Alien tidak pernah tahu tentang aku..
Kenapa?
Karena alien tidak dekat dengan mamaku..
Karena alien selalu jauh dari mamaku..
Karena alien bermusuhan dengan mamaku..
Karena alien tidak pernah akur dengan mamaku..
Karena alien selalu acuh tak acuh pada mamaku..
Karena alien tidak mau bertemu dengan mamaku...
Alien tidak pernah mau menemui mamaku..
Alien tidak pernah mau menemui nenekku..
Alien tidak pernah mau menemui keluargaku...


To Be Continue

Jumat, 05 Oktober 2012

~IKUTI KATA HATI~

Aku terluka mengingat masa lalu
Aku bosan menunggu hari esok
Aku lelah hidup di dunia

Ikuti kata hati

Aku terjatuh dalam hidup-ku
Aku terbakar dalam suhu-ku
Aku terpuruk dalam semangat-ku

Ikuti kata hati

Aku tak bisa berfikir
Aku tak bisa mengingat
Aku tak bisa  dan tak bisa..

Ikuti kata hati..
Ikuti kata hati..
Ikuti kata hati....

Aku bisa terdiam
Aku bisa merenung
Aku bisa melamun

Diamlah.. Merenunglah.. Melamunlah..
Jika memang hanya itu yang bisa..
Ikutilah dengan hati..
 

Selasa, 02 Oktober 2012

[Vid] Ekspedisi with SLA-KR




 

Video ini cuma iseng-iseng di sekolah, karena sedang mencari kegiatan maka kami membuat video ini.
Meskipun video ini sangat GAJE, tapi sekarang video ini sangat berharga bagi saya.
Di dalam video ini terdapat kenangan bersama teman-teman saya di Solo.
Semoga kita bisa bersama lagi suatu saat nanti :')
Love you MY SLA-KR~~

Senin, 01 Oktober 2012

[X] Example 'Breaking News'



Surakarta reaches out to street children


An official says that data verification problems are one factor hindering implementation of a program aimed at lifting street children in Surakarta, Central Java, out of poverty.

Surakarta, also known as Solo, did not have comprehensive information on the progress of an identification-and-training program aimed at street children launched in 2010.

Agus Hastanto, the head of the Surakarta Social Affairs and Transmigration Agency’s social division, said that officials could not solely rely on electronic data collection to help street children.
“It requires door-to-door identification,” Agus told The Jakarta Post on Monday.
Agus said that the administration had had difficulties in identifying who could accurately be defined as “street children”.

Incorrect identification might lead to poorly targeted training and aid programs, he said.
“This will further hamper the handling of street children.”

The program depended on the participation of the parents of street children, especially their mothers, who were asked to complete forms for their children so that officials could best determine which training programs were appropriate for the children.

Target children and their mothers are offered training under the program, after which each mother-and-child pair is given up to Rp 1.25 million (US$136.25) in seed money to start a business.

In practice, however, mothers used the forms to submit requests for needed items such as rice cookers, microwave ovens or washing machines, Agus said.

To speed identification, the administration was cooperating with NGOs such as the Family Welfare Consultation Institution (LK3), which verified the information about the street children at their homes.

LK3 chairman Suparno said that his workers were focusing on identifying children working as beggars or street musicians.

One problem, according to Suparno, was that the children applying for the program were not poor.
“Once we found a street musician who was actually a student seeking extra money to buy a cell phone,” Suparno said.
He added that such children were likely to return to their daily lives after raising the money needed to buy a cell phone and did not need the training program.

Most genuine street children, however, could not stay in their programs until their completion.

“It’s very difficult to make them stay. They will keep on going back to the street,” Suparno said, adding that LK3 so far had identified some 80 street children in Surakarta.

To keep street children in the program, LK3 has placed street children under its care at kiosks or workshops near their previous hangout sites to prevent them from getting bored easily.

“What is also important is having a check on them directly regarding why they went to the street in the first place,” he said.
 

Kamis, 27 September 2012

[XI] Narrative

The Story of Panyalahan Village
Folklore from West Java

Long time ago in Tasikmalaya, West Java, lived a young couple. They were farmers. They lived happily with their baby. The couple also had some animals. One of them was a tiger. When the couple went to work on the paddy field, the tiger looked after their baby. As usual, the couple went to the paddy field. Before they left, they asked the tiger to look after their baby.

“We will go to the field now. Look after our baby, okay?” The tiger nodded.

So, the couple went to the field. They worked from morning until afternoon. When the couple arrived home, the tiger welcomed them. The tiger acted differently. He wagged his tail and rubbed his body to the couple’s legs. He looked very happy. The husband became suspicious.

“Why does this tiger behave strangely? He does not act as usual?” he thought.

The husband looked at the tiger carefully. He was shocked. The tiger’s mouth was full of blood. Then he remembered his baby. He thought the tiger had eaten the baby.

“Why is your mouth full of blood?” he asked the tiger.

“You must have done something bad to my baby! Have you killed him? Why did you do that?” he was very panicked.

The husband took his knife and killed the tiger in anger. Then they both entered the house. They were shocked. They looked at each other. Their baby was sleeping peacefully in his cradle. He was not eaten by the tiger.

Quickly, the wife took the baby and kissed him. The baby woke up. He opened his eyes and smiled. The couple found a very large snake under the cradle. The snake was dead and full of blood.

“Oh, my wife,” the husband said.

“We have done a terrible thing. The tiger is not guilty! Look at the dead snake. The tiger must have killed him. He had saved our baby, but I killed him. Oh, my God! What have I done? I am so sorry. Forgive me, my dear tiger. Forgive me, please?”

The couple felt very guilty. They have killed their faithful tiger. It all happened because they did not check the baby first before they killed the tiger.

Since then, the couple’s village was called Panyalahan. The word Panyalahan derives from the word “nyalahan”, which means “wrong guess”.

Rabu, 26 September 2012

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My second paintings(?) maybe

It's my friend's paintings





XIA Junsu - Uncommitted

Uncommitted... Uncommitted... Uncommitted.. Ey.. Ey..

It was all a dream
Reality was far from the safe picture
She painted for me
She told me I was the one and I believed
Until the dream dissipated so suddenly

I don't know why she was so compelled to leave
Something was messing with her phsychology
I'm confused, she's saying something's wrong with me
But how can I fix something I cannot see

She said you're not ready
Baby you're not ready for the real thing
She told me that I'd be unfaithful and I cannot believed

She said you can't be committed
I said Baby I don't really get it
She said you're not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me

How could this be she's telling me
I will never let her be my everything
She said I'm a player and I'll never change
I feel that I'm ready to leave again

She said she could never trust a player like me
But baby that was part of my history
She's telling me breaking heart is a part of me
It's like it is in my system and it would never leave

She said you're not ready
Baby you're not ready for the real thing
She told me that I'd be unfaithful and I cannot believed

She said you cannot be committed
I said baby I don't really get it
She said you're not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me

She said you cannot be committed
I said baby I don't really get it
She said you're not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me
I'm committed..

Uncommitted, I'll never admit it
And then I'll never get it but somehow she could be right
Uncommitted, I'll never admit it
And then I'll never get it but somehow she could be right

She said you cannot be committed
I said baby I don't really get it
She said you're not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me

She said you cannot be committed
I said baby I don't really get it
She said you're not the right type only good for one night
You never stay committed to me



Minggu, 20 Mei 2012

TVXQ_CY - Shiawase Iru no Hana (TRANSLATE)

How long has it been raining?
I’ve been in the rain so long
But I’ve been walking in belief
Because you are there

Why, along with someone like me
Why, with such an affectionate look
I can’t stand still any more
‘Cause I don’t want to let your smile fade away

The future we believe we’ll have May turn out to have a different color
Even so, like flowers with the color of happiness wafting around you
Forever and ever, through endless ages
I will love you and embrace you with my love

If the world crumbles down If there’s no tomorrow
I’ll stay by you with your hand in my hand
Forever and ever, for everlasting time
I will love you

I stopped again and again
And looked back to find there’s nothing
But on the road ahead of me
I always found you and everything turned into hopes

Within the invisible walls of timidity
I’m often stuck because of anxiety
But a ray of light always comes through
I want to protect such your smile

My love’s spilling over, it’s too infinite for words
And falls down as tears of tender color
I love you so deeply, so dearly
And never stop loving you

If my heart breaks down and can’t see tomorrow
I’ll never let your hand go
Forever and ever, throughout all eternity
I will love you

The parched night sky
Started to blur softly
A light drifts, melting together with our wishes
And create a lovely note

The future we believe we’ll have May turn out to have a different color
Even so, like flowers with the color of happiness wafting around you
Forever and ever, through endless ages
I will love you and embrace you with my love

If the world crumbles down If there’s no tomorrow
I’ll stay by you with your hand in my hand
Forever and ever, for everlasting time
I will love you

TVXQ_CY - Shiawase Iru no Hana

Itsukara futte itandarou?
Mou zutto ame no nakade
Soredemo shinjinagara
Aruketano wa anata ga itakara

Doushite konna boku no tonari de
Doushite sonna yasashii kao shite
Koreijyo tachidomatte
Anata no egao wo ushinaitaku naiyo

Shinjiteita mirai ga naniiro ni kawattemo
Shiawaseiro no hana ga mau youni
Itsumademo zutto Itsumademo zutto
Anata wo aishite tsutsunde iru kara

Moshi sekai ga kowarete ashita ga mou nakutemo
Konomama te wo tsunaide sobani iruyo
Dokomademo zutto kawarazuni zutto
Anata wo aishite iruyo

Nando mo ashi wo tomete
Furikaeruto nani mo nakute
Keredomo mae niwa mada
Anataga ite kibou ni kawatteta

Okubyou de mienai kono kabe ni
Fuan de itsumo tachidomattemo
Higkari ga sashikondeku
Anata no egao wo mamotte itaiyo

Afuredashita omoi ga kotobajya osamaranaku
Yasashii iro no namida de koboreteiku
Konnanimo tsuyoku konnanimo tsuyoku
Anata wo aishite yamanaikara

Moshi kokoro ga kowarete ashita ga mienakutemo
Konomama te wo nigitte hanasanaiyo
Itsumademo zutto eien ni zutto
Anata wo aishite iruyo

Kawaita kono yozora ga
Honnori nijinde yuku
Changmin: Hikari ga nagarete negai ga majitte
Itoshii oto wo kanadeteku

Shinjiteita mirai ga
Naniiro ni kawattemo
Shiawaseiro no hana ga mau youni
Itsumademo zutto Itsumademo zutto
Anata wo aishi tsutsunde iru kara

Moshi sekai ga kowarete
Ashita ga mou nakutemo
Konomama te wo tsunaide sobani iruyo
Dokomademo zutto kawarazuni zutto
Anata wo aishite iruyo